Learning to live after baby loss
Sharing my experiences after the still birth of our daughter, Ottilie.
Thoughts, feelings and things that have helped me and I hope will help you too.
No Words Launch
No Words Today is the day that I am launching a baby loss awareness campaign - NO WORDS. It wasn’t long after Ottilie was born that I realised I needed to do something, to make a difference, to change something. Maybe because I knew I could never change that she...
The Treacley Days
The Treacley Days Some days are just treacley. Moving my body is hard, concrete boots weigh down my legs as I try to wade through wet sand making no progress. Clarity of thought is lost in the million post it notes of half thoughts that line the walls of my...
On your first birthday
On your first birthday I have often thought that if I had a child I would write them letters at every birthday, something to remind them of how much they have grown and learnt and made us laugh. Precious memories to look back on at milestones like 18th...
Tidings of comfort and joy
Sunrise on Christmas day. A long way from home. A long way from the Christmas we should have been having. A long way from any Christmas we have had before. I am in search of both comfort and joy. Comfort from the eternal absence of Ottilie. True joy has yet to return....
Keeping your friends close
In December 2018... just as I started to really be able to feel our wriggly baby start to move, we booked a holiday with some of our best friends. A villa, somewhere warm with 12 adults, their kids and 3 babies who were yet to be born, including Ottilie. It was...
The Fourth Trimester
So there it was, the “fourth trimester”. I had read so much about the first three months of parenthood and watched so many friends battle the highs and lows of the most magical and yet desperately exhausting time. I was so ready for the challenge. Instead we...
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